Tuesday, September 30, 2008
HE FUCKING CURSED ME.
♥JAJA (9/30/2008 3:33:13 AM): My mother just told me to tell you these very words "She's a fucking unstable twat" and she also said "She's a couple of cans short of a six pack" (in Britain, that is to say one is crazy) She is also sending out a very nasty curse in your direction in revenge for hirting her only son. The curse will end when you wake ap and realise that what you have done is evil.
OHHHHHHHH....I'M SO SCARED.
SO THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO THE PERSON THAT YOU LIKE.
Beverly Lin sihui: So that's what you do to the person that you LIKE. I can't imagine what you'll do to me if you really hated me. You've just made me ask myself why I had wasted my time on someone who will curse me when I am angry and who I am.
Beverly Lin sihui: just grow up and stop telling me on your mom.
OHHHHHHHH....I'M SO SCARED.
SO THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO THE PERSON THAT YOU LIKE.
Beverly Lin sihui: So that's what you do to the person that you LIKE. I can't imagine what you'll do to me if you really hated me. You've just made me ask myself why I had wasted my time on someone who will curse me when I am angry and who I am.
Beverly Lin sihui: just grow up and stop telling me on your mom.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:52 PM
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Problem Statement: Is there hope?
*Suicide_by_ImmaculateMurder
If only I were brave enough to do so because it's getting harder and harder at times to talk to James because he's being so UNEMOTIONAL at times and I can't stand it at times. In the end, the people at the receiving end are my BFFs and good friends who comfort me or ask me to confront him. I guess being brave for my friends is being different having courage to face James at times.
Our chats are getting from bad to worse, longer ones to shorter ones. He doesn't like talk to me as much even when I do not respond to him. What am I suppose to do?? It's probably not meant to be, and I have a feeling that sooner or later the feelings will fade to oblivion and I'll only treat him as my friend. This cannot go on!! Or else... THAT will happen.
This is our conversation.
♥JAJA: Hi, I am online today <---What kind of start of a conversation is this??!
♥JAJA: u there?
Beverly Lin sihui: yeap!
♥JAJA: I almost thought you had dozed off or something
Beverly Lin sihui: i was brushin my teeth
♥JAJA: ah
♥JAJA: so you will be going to sleep very shortly then
Beverly Lin sihui: depends
Beverly Lin sihui: hhaha
Beverly Lin sihui: ive got no sch for THREE DAYS!
♥JAJA: wow, nice
Beverly Lin sihui: haha
Beverly Lin sihui: xD
♥JAJA: hehe
♥JAJA: well, I had my Chinese lesson yesterday, and my teacher is impressed with my skill.
♥JAJA: Also, I was glad when China's spacemen came home safely
Beverly Lin sihui: YAY for your chinese lesson!!!
Beverly Lin sihui: ))= for e safe journey back
Beverly Lin sihui: hahaha
Beverly Lin sihui: i'm so cruel
Beverly Lin sihui: haha
♥JAJA: the three astronauts were selected in 1998, and have put a lot or work for that mission, they were very brave going up there, especially Zhai Zhigang.
Beverly Lin sihui: haha..ok, fine i'll clap for thm
♥JAJA: hehe
♥JAJA: I know you are not exactly proud of China's space program
Beverly Lin sihui: xD nono, nt tt im nt proud of e space program. Not proud of china
♥JAJA: well, it is your grandmother country, so show it some respect <--- So fierce for what?
♥JAJA: 5000 years of culture and civilisation, you can't knock that
Beverly Lin sihui: ))))= i overslpt in e bus today. Banged my head against the window and woke up.
♥JAJA: eek! Ouch! and hehheheheheheheh!
Beverly Lin sihui: ))))))))))))))=
♥JAJA: I can never sleep while on the move, it does not seem to be in my nature
Beverly Lin sihui: u laugh at me....
Beverly Lin sihui: T_T
♥JAJA: well, seeing somone headbobbing seems funny to me
Beverly Lin sihui: )):
♥JAJA: there was something I saw long ago, but I cannot find it anymore, something far worse than simple head bobbing. Someone was asleep on a waterbed or something very bouncy, and someone else jumped on it, and the sleeping man went flying!
Beverly Lin sihui: lol!!
Beverly Lin sihui: but tt's so bad!!!!
♥JAJA: hehe I could not help it
Beverly Lin sihui: well, e bus ride's quite smooth and i fall aslp everytime I return home from school. School's tiring..)=
♥JAJA: hehe I know how you feel, I sometimes end up crashing out when I get back home
Beverly Lin sihui: )= u noe how i feel yet.....so unsympathetic for me!!!
♥JAJA: well, I do find it hard showing emotions, but that does not mean I dont have them
Beverly Lin sihui: well...u can learn right?? I mean slowly?
♥JAJA: I guess
♥JAJA: I have just been in an environment where people keep their emotions below the surface, and I do this more than anyone else
Beverly Lin sihui: well..dere's always a first..((=
♥JAJA: indeed
What's there to talk about??? *sobs* I feel like going off and not tell him at times to let him know what it is like to be at the receiving end of it. ))= But just not having the heart to do so. Just hearing from SL that he went for dinner and my reaction was W-T-F because he din't tell me any thing.
3:15AM
♥JAJA: Hi, I just had my dinner
Beverly Lin sihui: haha, ya, caleb told me
Beverly Lin sihui: hahaha
Beverly Lin sihui: LOL
♥JAJA: ah
♥JAJA: he went to bed a few moments ago
♥JAJA: I wanted to get back to him, but I took way too long
Beverly Lin sihui: hha, he's gng to bed
Beverly Lin sihui: haha
♥JAJA: I think I told you about my Chinese name, Jin Long. I found out that there is a temple in Singapore by that very name
♥JAJA: hehe
Beverly Lin sihui: there is?
Beverly Lin sihui: i din't even noe tt
♥JAJA: yes, in Serangoon
♥JAJA: there are protests because the government is trying to move the site
Beverly Lin sihui: i don't stay in serangoon!
Beverly Lin sihui: so i dont noe
♥JAJA: there is an a sacred tree there, and it would be defiled if it were moved
♥JAJA: It serves Taoists and Buddhists, as well as other Chinese traditional faiths
Beverly Lin sihui: i havent been to a temple in a long while
♥JAJA: I know
♥JAJA: you follow western ways now
♥JAJA: I found out that the Mayor of Beijing is also called Jinlong
♥JAJA: hehe
♥JAJA: otherwise it seems to be a rather rare name
♥JAJA: you still there?
Beverly Lin sihui: yea..
Beverly Lin sihui: actually....i know where ure coming from, not able to be emotional and all..but since all these are after all online...i wouldnt know for sure if ure telling me the truth after all?Initially yes i believed you.. but the more you emphasised your "condition" especially whenever youre trying to get away from the fact that you just arent commited enough, the more i find myself not really buying excuses anymore. i am really disappointed if that is the case just try n put myself into ur shoes. Truth is, sometimes, I don't even noe whether to believe if you exist as you. Tt's how i feel :/
♥JAJA: we've been through this
♥JAJA: I am real
♥JAJA: and yes, I find it hard to commit myself to something
♥JAJA: you seem to be having another "revolution"
♥JAJA: If that's how you are going to be, then I will let you have your revolution. I am not sure I will like the new you and much as I like the old you.
Beverly Lin Sihui: WHY R U ALWAYS THINKING I'M THE ONE WHOS CHANGING WHEN ITS NT MY FAULT!?? THE WAY I FEEL NOW JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU HAVENT PROVEN ENOUGH TO ME THAT YOU'RE AS REAL AS U SO CLAIM YOU ARE. I've been feeling like that for a VERY long time just that I'm controlling everything because I don't want to hurt you.
♥JAJA: I see. A revolution
♥JAJA: what sparked this off? new ideas?
♥JAJA: last time you were hyped up because someone else had it
♥JAJA: who's the scaremonger? who has been telling you things they cannot prove?
Beverly Lin sihui: NOBODY.
♥JAJA: then someTHING has been feeding you with false information
Beverly Lin sihui: THING? I can think on my own n I don't need someTHING telling me anyTHING
♥JAJA: then why the revolution?
Beverly Lin sihui: There's no revolution, that's my brain
♥JAJA: well, in the name of the 12 Olympians, I pray that you come to your senses soon
♥JAJA: and that the aliens let go of your mind before they make your head explode
OK, I'M FUCKING PISSED NOW.
Answer to Problem Statement: No, there is not.
And.....IF HE EVER WANTS TO TALK TO ME, HE BETTER APOLOGISE. AND HE BETTER HOPE IT'S NOT TOO LITTLE TOO LATE.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:22 AM
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What happens to a stress-stricken girl
*peace_by_seelenfaengerin
Music's in Heaven now...(((= I'm so sad for Jean's loss! Poor music! Well, maybe it's his time to finally be with God. He's in a place with no pain, no hunger, no poverty. God and his angels will look after him. God, please give Jean the strength she needs to carry on.
AHHHHHHHHH I'M SO SIAN IN CLASS! Luckily there's Josh(from FB) and all my friends(in MSN) to talk to! And PASTA's like, I think ignoring me??! HELLOOOOOO?? You wanted to add me mister. =.= read my eyes. JOSH ROCKX! And my "Winnie the Pooh" family is coming together now!
CPC is Winnie
i'm Eeyore
Josh is Tigger
Song Lin is Roo!!
Anymore applicants???
Class was sucky as usual!!!
Duh, HELLO?!?! CELL CYCLE LEI!
*****
After school, I went to meet with my mates and practice Candyman till like 6PM then went to break fast for Aizat. Stupid Malay girl snatched our place. We're fooling around with our cameras and took some shots. Before that, we went MAD with the arcade game. BANG BANG BANG!!!!
Random Colages!!!
Hmm...
WTF.
Saw "LAN Kar er"
SAW ANGMOH
ANGMOH SAW ME
Reminded me of JAJA
HUH???
HAAA!!!
FUCK YOU LA!
The famous 3 AC shots!
AW~~~~ Rabbit CPC!!!
Bleeeeeeeeeeahhhhhh!!!!!
Hrrumph... Look at that blurry arm!!!
WTF!!
Who is SJ talking to???
LMAO!!!! Must be her BF!
Singapore's very own: Mr Donaald Trumpp
Eugene BULLY ME!!!!!!!!!
*going bongus*
Don't I look handsome?
SO SWEET TOGETHER!!!! <3
Aizat, "I <3 my iphone!
CPC, " I wonder is Aizat loves me more then his iphone?"
Loves me, loves me not...
*sobs*
"Yay!!! He loves me!!!"
*KISS KISS!!!!
Look at Aizat!!!
SOOOOOO cute sia together!!!!
MUACKXXXX~~~
CPC, " You say you want to buy me 5 carat engagement ring lor"
Aizat, "Ok la... ok la, you so pretty and cute!"
CPC smiles secretly.
Aizat, "I'M JOKING LA!"
CPC, " WTF, STUPID AIZAT"
*sobs*
"CRRRAP, I'm so busted."
Just smile... just smile...
-Gosh, he thinks he can get away with being "handsome"-
CPC is "hmm?!-ing"
Eugene doing what sia!??!
Eugene: "AHHHH... eat mum mum..."
CPC: "Ah goo...gooo.."
HAHAHHA, AIZAT'S PIZZA FACE!
This is an UNGLAM shot people!!!
Learn from The Master.
Hahaha, we all took a photo when SJ with her
*BOYFRIENDDDD!!!!!
SJ act cute sia!!!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:39 AM
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Friday, September 26, 2008
Crystalline
*crystalline
This is my favourite shot of the pair of Swarovski crystalline chandelier earrings which I made for my friend's birthday gift. OH NOS... I forgot to give my blessings to Sandy again!! For her birthday. Here's a big one to you BABE!!
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! MUACKXX...XOXO!!
For any of you who want a pair, I can try and make one and sell to you for "friends" price! x)) Or else, another time like your birthday! Song lin, if you can find peacock feathers, I can try and customize it! But you need to find those with e hooks already. ((((=
Rhapsody training was FUN!! I got chosen as solos for 2 songs! "Emotion" and "A moment like this" x))
JAJA's offline again! )))))))x
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:48 AM
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
What is love?
*love_by_laurapora
What is LOVE? According to "The free Dictionary" under love it's first meaning is: "A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness". Is that what I feel whenever I talk with JAJA? Is it possible that I do not actually in-a-sense LOVE him even when I claim I have "fallen in LOVE" with him and my friend actually feels that I'm 95% in love with him.
"HUH!!!!!!!!!".
So what am I suppose to do now?? I have no idea what I'll do if one day, he turns out to already have a girl or found one from his school.
Being in "love", I should be able to talk to him about anything but I feel that every time we chat on YAHOO! he always wants to tell me about some war news or it will be about his sci fi world. In the end, I feel that I'm waiting for nothing! I want to know about HIM and not about things which he make up or things about the world. I want to know about his life and how it had been when I could not talk to him! Missing him LOADS but he doesn't seem to feel that same way about it or else he would have left me offline messages. Y_Y so.... I have decided to let him go for now and will not wait for him online. At the same time, I will be able to see how much I "mean" to him.
FYP today, only Hafizah and Sherilyn came. We did sonication, protein purification and lastly AP assay.
Here's a picture of our AP assay!
YAY!!! There was like instant colour change for my Res proteins! Happy like hell! That might mean that C3 does affect the AP activity in the normal plasmid. Because Res does not have C3 in it and there was binding!!! SO!!!!! C3 does affect it! \^^/blablabla.. dont care about it anyway. Just gimme a good grade.
JAJA din't come online today and weird Glenn IM-ed again. -.- Got to chat with FB josh and IP Griffen! xD
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:36 AM
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
*star*bucks?
*starbucks_by_llnanooll
Waking up to my dad's "it's-645-already" alarm clock was the signal for my to pull my covers up, over my head. I was not over the fact that school started about three weeks ago and still want to be able to sleep till the sunlight is "grilling my butt". It should be made a SIN for us to wake up so early in the morning. So I slept for 15 minutes more and hauled myself out of bed today, did all my washing up and was ready to leave the house under half an hour. OH YEA.. woots. Missed my stupid bus by a mere 5 minutes and had to take my 2nd option bus which will reach the interchange at 8. My friend Felicia was on the bus which was TOTAL "coolness", only got to chat with her after alighting at the interchange. Apparently this guy who sat next to her was falling asleep and poor Fel was squished to the side of the seat because he was leaning in nearer and nearer towards her with every bump the bus made. Got to school and already felt like skipping out on class because it was a TUESDAY, which meant... "SCIIIIIIENCE!!!!!". It IS awful in my opinion and "ya~urk!" so XP to science!!!! I love THURDAYS AND FRIDAYS because they are my favourite days of the week. A Cappella training's on THURS and "Reasoning through the ages" module is on Fri! ABSOLUTELY FABO!!!!
I SHOULD BE IN STARBUCKS SIPPING MY WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA NOW.
First meeting was just CRAWLING by and when 1ST BREAK came, I was HIGH because it's BFFs eating time!! Went down to meet my BFFs and talked about contact lenses and what nots. O.o we might be forming a band too!! COOLNESS!!! -.- back in class after one hour of being high on BFF-ship and it was BORING ASS!! Furthermore I was like "????!?!??" throughout the whole time so I am very thankful to God for placing me in the most FANTASTIC team in the world. With Alfred, Rodney and Yu Song(gorgor) in my team, I feel SO BLESSED! They are like UBER patient with me and taught me everything in the MOST LAY MAN TERMS and every possible way for me to understand. THANK YOU!!! XOXO to all three of you! Especially 오빠, thank you for explain it all to (moronic) me and actually making me stay in class and not skip the presentation!! I could kiss u now!!!
I skipped out after my presenation because I just could stand the tense environment in the classroom and made an excuse that I have family problem to tend to Xp and went to be with my BFFs in the cafe at E1 block. The "aunties" at the cafe gave me some bites of this nice cake which was for a function tomorrow. It was "devilish-iously DELISH!" and came in two flavours!! YUMmy! Went off at about 4pm and met Freda 1/2way to the interchange. "Thanks BABE! For waiting for me in the sun" xD PHEW worked out like hell today and still feeling "sweaty" about it. YAY!! If I can continue this like 3 times a week I'm sure I'll lose weight and all that BABY PHAT in no time! James din't come online yesterday...I HOPE that he does tonight? xD
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7:41 PM
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Monday, September 22, 2008
FIEEEEEEEEEERCCCCCCE!
*the_cat_with_boots___by_m0thyyku
*My_Cat_by_Joffi
I thought these two photographs are ABSOLUTELY "fabo". The first one with the striped cat is TOTALLY emotional because I can just feel the sadness which is shown COMPLETELY in its eyes. And the second shot is FIEEEERCCCCCE!!!!! As Tyra says, it's ALWAYS in the eyes. And I completely agree with her! It was so fierce I din't know which picture to choose to post on my blog.
Ok, here's the scoop. I wore my blue collared tee today with my grey Cotton On shorts and green slippers, I had a gut feeling that I might have lab today? But in the end, I did not bother to follow that feeling and just went to school. As I was walking to my block, I passed the laboratory block and I saw my classmates there. LIKE OMG OK. I panicked like HELL and immediately turned into that block and sat the lift up to the third level to check my work-space. It was like, "THERE WERE NO ANNOUNCEMENTS LA." and after that I met the gang at w4. Mike was IM-ing the moment I was online!! "AWWW~" but he stopped talking like after a while. -.- He's like ALWAYS like that. LAMENESS. Which girl will believe that a guy likes me when he talks like SO LITTLE?? HUH! hahhaha... at least JAJA still talks to me! Maybe that's where Mike failed and JAJA succeeded! xDD ♥♥♥♥♥
I went to meet and eat with the gang, sansan and CPC were scolding me 'cause I dint tell them I was ponning school,,oh well! hahahha...blablabla...den i met Freda and we talked about our angmoh fetish and all...
THE END. I'm tired.
Oh, JAJA's not online. )=
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:56 PM
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
Fun @ POPO's
MY COUSINS ARE SUPREME MODELS!!!!
Maybe they're just super cute and because I'm a good photographer? Xp
Had the craziest time at POPO's house today because I was playing with ALL 4 cousins of mine. Plus my favourite ones sat home in my parent's car and played with them all the way back. My poor brother got prodded by both of them. WHAT GREAT FUN!
What made the best topping was, JAJA was online!!! >___< hehhehehhe...
Maybe they're just super cute and because I'm a good photographer? Xp
Had the craziest time at POPO's house today because I was playing with ALL 4 cousins of mine. Plus my favourite ones sat home in my parent's car and played with them all the way back. My poor brother got prodded by both of them. WHAT GREAT FUN!
What made the best topping was, JAJA was online!!! >___< hehhehehhe...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:01 PM
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Friday, September 19, 2008
GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!!
*http://www.damienmason.com
LET'S SCRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAM!!!!! IT'S TENSE IN THE HOUSE E26E!! Everyone's fighting for their rights and that their own interpretation is correct. I agree with Michelle that they are not very open to the thoughts of other but actually she's a little not open too, because she keeps saying that classification is a form of labeling. Well, it's their point of view I guess...((= I'm open to all opinions just not weird ones that have no linkage to what we are talking about. Which KH does ALL the time. Mich and I were panicking and we snatch the job of compiling to ourselves to make sure that things do not go off topic or the slides get jumbled up. In the end, KH still managed to take some Nigel's points. Mich and I kept laughing la... xD After that was just like...
GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!! GRILL!!!!
O_O la.
Class was like finally OVER, but I thought that this GIRL who was like harping on how long the lesson will take to end, it was like, "What are you doing here then?". I didn't mind the lesson going on for a few more hours, but I reckon it's the sleep-less-ness that got the better of me. I have no idea why I can't sleep well on Thursdays' nights. Maybe it's because I stay up to wait for someone and I end up sleeping till like 12pm the same day. So I can't sleep early. Lesson learnt.
During the 6P, N and I were fooling around on MSN after I added him. He was Lindsay Lohan and we were talking about "Paris Hilton diamond lenses webcams" and it's power and our family. "Her" hubby Michael Phelps and mine, WHO ELSE. HAHAHA...damn funny la. Made my day.
***
I Still Believe by Hayden Panettiere
Some how I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he awaits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
I wont give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away
Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
I know whats real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for awhile
With just one touch love can conquer fears
Turning all your tears into smiles
Its such a wondrous feeling
I know that my heart can't be wrong
Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever
When you fall
Its the greatest power of all
Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Yes I still believe
Believe in love
Still I still believe
Believe in love
Believe in love...
***
Truly, it is the GREATEST power of all. Love. My love for God, my love for my family, my love for my BBFFs & BFFs and my love for JAJA. But "Duh!" it's obvious who this song is for right, none other than JAJA. 'Cause I can't have this kind of love for any of the people I stated above. It will be so wrong! Hello?? JAJA din't reply to my offline message can? Like "WTF." )'= Doesn't he want to know what SL say to me?? Or SAID to me(LONG TIME AGO)?
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 3:03 PM
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
WOOTS.
Here's me competing with XIAXUE's eyelashes collection with my earrings collection!!!
Hrrumph! See if she can beat me!?
Hrrumph! See if she can beat me!?
WHITE box.
For those which can't be put in neither the RED nor GREEN because it's too BIG.
GREEN: From Arabian/ Bohemian type of earrings
RED: From those I made and more classi-er looking ones.
RED: From those I made and more classi-er looking ones.
WOOTS!
Training today was -.- because the boys were like cock-voice and hearing for both the songs and the warm ups. It's because they don't listen and when they do, it goes out the other ear. Esp Mr H. who does not even bother to make sure he sings it correct but like to make sure other people do. -.-
JAMES din't come online la.
Look at what he replied to my message.
Beverly Lin sihui: I.....heard smth from Caleb xD haha..made my heart skip a beat
♥JAJA: Hi, sorry I did not get online today, I got home far later than I had hoped, and then my mother became very possessive over the computer. Speaking of Caleb I have not spoken with him in a long time. He goes to bed earlier than you and so I rarely get chance to talk to him.(?!??!?!??!?! That's not a reply!) I went to the bookshop today and got The Analects. I hope to gain some sense of understanding and new wisdom from it. I might be able to talk with you tomorrow, or maybe not. The best chance would be Saturday(WHAT???! Is he like trying to MURDER me or what?) I think.
Training today was -.- because the boys were like cock-voice and hearing for both the songs and the warm ups. It's because they don't listen and when they do, it goes out the other ear. Esp Mr H. who does not even bother to make sure he sings it correct but like to make sure other people do. -.-
JAMES din't come online la.
Look at what he replied to my message.
Beverly Lin sihui: I.....heard smth from Caleb xD haha..made my heart skip a beat
♥JAJA: Hi, sorry I did not get online today, I got home far later than I had hoped, and then my mother became very possessive over the computer. Speaking of Caleb I have not spoken with him in a long time. He goes to bed earlier than you and so I rarely get chance to talk to him.(?!??!?!??!?! That's not a reply!) I went to the bookshop today and got The Analects. I hope to gain some sense of understanding and new wisdom from it. I might be able to talk with you tomorrow, or maybe not. The best chance would be Saturday(WHAT???! Is he like trying to MURDER me or what?) I think.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 11:02 PM
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hart to trust
*i_find_it_hart_to_trust__by_freckledmystery
I do find it hard to trust... it's a SAD SAD life for me because JAJA's started school and the time difference is making things harder for us to talk. Missing him even though we've talked yesterday and maybe it's because we haven't chatted in a while. And today he's not online YET again!!! And I thought he told me that he has his Wednesdays OFF? Why is he not online then?? It's 6PM on a Wednesday now and he hasn't replied my offline message to him.
Beverly Lin: I.....heard smth from Caleb xD haha..made my heart skip a beat
I know it's kinda stupid because I ALREADY know about it LONG AGO that he said he likes me but, I want to discuss that topic about US again... I kinda miss that time where he was so serious about me moving to UK to study so we can be like at least within a phone's call away? Obviously I will NOT be able to do that, but him telling me that is IMPORTANT to me... At least it shows he cares? Or maybe wants to see me? Or go out with me??
-sigh- so how can I trust that I still have his heart, even though mine has SUPER-GLUED itself to him?
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:28 AM
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