Saturday, November 1, 2008
Deranged?! I'm not unstable am I?
WAITTTTT..What do you mean unstable? Are you implying that I'm deranged? Well, I'm neither unstable nor deranged I'm just angry. And I don't need help. I need reassurance, not help. People get angry, they get worked up at times and you're not exactly helping me calm down by saying that I'm unstable and repeating again and again. I go into auto debate mode when I'm mad and this is me...being mad. Not mad as an operative word. And I'm not fucking unstable. O.K?
-Beverly
I feel that at times I do put too much trust in people. Perhaps you have made the same mistake, you placed too much trust in me, too much faith in something that would never be. I know how much this can hurt, I have been on the recieving end of this, it feels like the entire world is coming to an end.
I cannot trust someone who is unstable and clearly needs some degree of help which I am not qualified to provide. Perhaps it was me that made the mistake
--J
--- On Fri, 31/10/08, Beverly Lin sihui wrote:
From: Beverly Lin sihui
Subject: Re: hellooooooo?
To: jamesuddin@yahoo.co.uk
Date: Friday, 31 October, 2008, 3:14 AM
So...I cannot be angry but you can? And I don't think that being angry is equivalent to being hostile and you me now is nothing because I can scream at people who make me furious and make them cry. That is being hostile. Annnnnnnd...you havent answered my question.
-Beverly
From: James Uddin
To: Beverly Lin sihui
Sent: Friday, 31 October 2008 8:44:05
Subject: Re: hellooooooo?
Sorry for my lateness. I find it hard to trust people at the best of times, especially when their attitude is so unbalanced, either friendly or hostile suddenly. I have grown up with friends who slip and slide, sometimes within the space of a day. Therefore although I am used to shifting friends, I naturally yearn for stability, someone who does not suddenly make a U-turn against me.
I have had so many people like this, who are friendly with me one day, and then hostile the next, I cannot count them. This is why I find it hard to trust people, and you are starting to act unstable like these people I have known. These people in the past have caused me great pain, as I placed too much faith and trust in them, and they abused that and stabbed me in the back.
You need to prove yourself trustworthy, as right now I am caught in two minds on the issue, whether to trust you or not.
Perhaps I am overstating myself, but I am closing myself off somewhat for security concerns.
--- On Thu, 30/10/08, Beverly Lin sihui wrote:
From: Beverly Lin sihui
Subject: hellooooooo?
To: jamesuddin@yahoo.co.uk
Date: Thursday, 30 October, 2008, 5:16 PM
You're taking an awfully long time to reply...stop putting me in suspense at what you've to say. ):
SO...I'm a risk of trust now? If I like you then you'll have to be able to trust me therefore, you do not really like me because I have doubts? All those heart-racing moments are all what then? Hallucinations? Mere imaginations? Do you ever have those moments? Honestly...tell me.
-Beverly
-Beverly
I feel that at times I do put too much trust in people. Perhaps you have made the same mistake, you placed too much trust in me, too much faith in something that would never be. I know how much this can hurt, I have been on the recieving end of this, it feels like the entire world is coming to an end.
I cannot trust someone who is unstable and clearly needs some degree of help which I am not qualified to provide. Perhaps it was me that made the mistake
--J
--- On Fri, 31/10/08, Beverly Lin sihui
From: Beverly Lin sihui
Subject: Re: hellooooooo?
To: jamesuddin@yahoo.co.uk
Date: Friday, 31 October, 2008, 3:14 AM
So...I cannot be angry but you can? And I don't think that being angry is equivalent to being hostile and you me now is nothing because I can scream at people who make me furious and make them cry. That is being hostile. Annnnnnnd...you havent answered my question.
-Beverly
From: James Uddin
To: Beverly Lin sihui
Sent: Friday, 31 October 2008 8:44:05
Subject: Re: hellooooooo?
Sorry for my lateness. I find it hard to trust people at the best of times, especially when their attitude is so unbalanced, either friendly or hostile suddenly. I have grown up with friends who slip and slide, sometimes within the space of a day. Therefore although I am used to shifting friends, I naturally yearn for stability, someone who does not suddenly make a U-turn against me.
I have had so many people like this, who are friendly with me one day, and then hostile the next, I cannot count them. This is why I find it hard to trust people, and you are starting to act unstable like these people I have known. These people in the past have caused me great pain, as I placed too much faith and trust in them, and they abused that and stabbed me in the back.
You need to prove yourself trustworthy, as right now I am caught in two minds on the issue, whether to trust you or not.
Perhaps I am overstating myself, but I am closing myself off somewhat for security concerns.
--- On Thu, 30/10/08, Beverly Lin sihui
From: Beverly Lin sihui
Subject: hellooooooo?
To: jamesuddin@yahoo.co.uk
Date: Thursday, 30 October, 2008, 5:16 PM
You're taking an awfully long time to reply...stop putting me in suspense at what you've to say. ):
SO...I'm a risk of trust now? If I like you then you'll have to be able to trust me therefore, you do not really like me because I have doubts? All those heart-racing moments are all what then? Hallucinations? Mere imaginations? Do you ever have those moments? Honestly...tell me.
-Beverly
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:02 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
