Saturday, July 26, 2008

*water's edge by ~screamsallyx

When I am alone or have gone quiet, it means I'm thinking things I should not be thinking about.

Emoing by the Reflection Pond with Electrico playing in the background, I started to think back to what all my friends told me about HIM. I started to think how much I've committed to this non-existant relationship or how much I've committed without realising if HE is for real.

All this time, HE only seems real in Yahoo IM since that is our one and only communication. If I were have to tell my mother about him, how will I prove his for real? She's not gonna believe 2 pictures. While I have FB, blog and my "bye bye" song. I've UNKNOWINGLY let myself in too deep when my friends have told me not to as they dont want me to get hurt in the end.

Seriously, I've ever thought of studying in Nottingham but the way HE had suggested it ytd was as if it was being shove down my throat. HE was taking it way serious about me going there, "hello, student= no cash". And after a while, he comes around telling me, "well, I cant wait around for gods-know-how-many-years and do nothing. hehe". I was like SERIOUSLY heartbroken when he said that. Even if you put a laughing sound behind, it still will hurt someone who likes you. FURTHERMORE, telling it to someone who likes you is WAY WRONG. And he dint even realise tt I was lyk pissed in a way, if a girl tells you she'll see 100 more then you do, you're suppose to go, "NOO!! Dont do that." and not
"How might you do that then?

me: i'll ask all my frns to matchmake me!!!!!!

yeah

I wish I could have done something like that

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HELLO?!??!?!

My friends says he's a little possessive and afraid of commitment. And they want me OUT NOW. Why dont u rip my heart out and stamp all over it.